Having a down moment
This is going to sound really stupid but most of the time I actually forget I’m in a wheelchair. It’s the norm now and I don’t notice it. When I’m at uni it doesn’t really affect me, I go to lectures, I study at the library or at home, go to exams. None of these things really require me to be able to walk or even challenge my disability.
So when I actually have to do something more challenging. I’m hit harder. With the sudden realisation that I am different. I am limited and there are lots of things I can’t do.
There are some plans this summer to go to a theme park with friends with all these big rides that throw you around. I searched it up on the website checking the accessibility. There are lots of things I can’t go on, but there is also parking, different access points to avoid steps, about 2 or 3 different passes for carers, discounts and queuing issues. Doctors notes to prove things etc etc.
All I want to do is have a great day out with my friends and not have to think about my disability. I have to plan plan plan. This is something I’m still not used to and it fucking sucks.